Conflicts

Why is it that I do not mind yelling at people at fighting but I hate talking things out? I feel so uncomfortable and awkward and I feel that I cannot defend myself and end up backing away. I have no problem making my points when it becomes escalated and smart aleck but when it is just calm confrontation, I freak out. I feel that I cannot get my points across because I care too much about not arguing that I just resolve things and say everything is alright when actually I hate the situation.

My roommate Kasey and I were best of friends in the beginning of this year. We felt like each other's second halves. During this spring quarter, I have felt a shift in our friendship. She does not talk to me or confide in me very much anymore. We only small talk and I feel that I am the only one who genuinely wants to talk. I hear little stories from Katie, about Kasey, that I have not even heard from Kasey! I just really really hate conflict and I hate awkwardness! I have been meaning to talk with her about it but once again, I get scared and would rather just let things boil over. But then dont'. She texted me this morning and the conversation was weird cause it was over texting and now I don't want to go home!! : (